This is a late post, but better late than never. 😀
Almost a month ago, I turned 30 (wow, I’m still not used to it, LOL). God has been so gracious to me for three decades now. Naku, nasanay ako na nasa 20s lang ang edad ko, ayokong isiping 30 na ako, chos! haha.
I still see the kid in me sometimes – the little girl who lived a very simple life in the province where most of the time, her parents try to make ends meet. She was full of dreams and was very optimistic. This girl believed she can do anything and can be anyone. She once told her mom she would be a pianist, a flight stewardess, a singer, and a rich person someday. She was limitless.
As she grew up, she discerned that things are not as easy as she thought they’d be. She became aware of her family’s financial situation and she realized how poor they were. There were times that she would be envious of the things that her friends had. She thought to herself, she would have to work very hard if she wants to go up. However, she didn’t always have that positive mindset.
As a daughter of a pastor (and a bible woman), she grew up knowing God and accepted Him as her personal Savior and Lord at an early age. She knew that no matter how tough their life was, that they have a God who would never forsake them. But there are times that she would question God – “why did it have to be us who would be this poor?”. She knew it was not good to doubt God’s plans but she couldn’t help herself from asking why.
As she grew up, her curiosity to try things started growing. She’s sinned and went away from her first love for a while. It was not easy living a life without a good relationship with the Father. She was always feeling empty. But, her God is a loving God and was willing to take her back with wide-open arms when she begged for forgiveness! His grace is always greater than her sin.
Learning and Growing
She tried looking for jobs to somehow help herself and her family. By God’s grace, she got hired as a customer service representative and that’s when things started to get better. You see, she was not a computer literate growing up but that was never the reason for her to stop learning. With the salary that she had, she was able to help her family little by little. More than two years later, she tried applying for a home-based job. God was really gracious, she got hired. She has been working from since then, even up to now.
Getting older and, hopefully, wiser
Now a wife and a mother of a 4-yr old boy, she is still not rich but definitely better than when they were young. She recognized it’s not always about money but contentment. She still has dreams she wanted to pursue. She’s still hustling daily and trying to live a good life as the child of the Most High – not only for her Master in heaven but also to her family and the people around her.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11 New International Version (NIV)